The Breakup

I don’t mind at all, and thank you for asking. We mutually broke up after we were a bit rocky for quite some time. With school and all, it would’ve been difficult to put in more effort into getting back into a “full committed relationship”. But don’t get me wrong though. We still did try our best and still loved each other then, but we realized that it best for us to respect each other’s priorities and put our full effort on one thing, ourselves. Relationships are a lot harder than it sounds. And if you ever were in one, you’ll understand where I’m coming from. A lot people think that “love can prevail and overcome anything” but there seriously is a lot more to it. It’s not going to be like the movies we watched, the books we read, or the puppy love romances we imagined in our heads. And with all the “cute couple pictures”, “relationships quotes”, etc. all over Tumblr, it’s easy for people, especially the relatively younger generation like middle school/high school, to imagine being in love as easy as 1,2,3. This is because a majority of the time, they think of all the good things like the cute kisses on the cheek, the cuddling, the feeling of always having someone there for you, etc. and not all the other things like the fights, the breaks, the struggle, and so forth. It’s difficult to understand what true love is, and it’s just something that you have to experience and go through. Love is hard. Love is complex.  And relationships will never be “that perfect relationship you imagined”. That’s reality. And so, back to us. Nicole and I left it at “This is for the better. If it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be. And whatever happens, happens.” And so months later, we’ve moved on, kept on good terms, and still remained good friends, which I am so happy and so grateful that we still are. I actually had dinner with her the other night, and we, as usual, picked right back up smoothly like two good friends would. And we told each other as we have before that “if we both were to ever find somebody, we would be truly happy for one another.”

Day 24- A letter to your parents (13 Days late)

Dear Mom and Dad,

I’m sorry for all the trouble I have given you and the poor grades you’ve seen. Thank you for your unconditional love and support, despite all of the disappointment and let downs.  Even though there have been so many times when I’ve felt that I wished I never had y’all as parents, I know in my heart, I was just being selfish at the time and didn’t know any better. I’m so happy and grateful to have y’all as parents. My whole, sheltered life, I have taken everything for granted. And to be honest, I still am, but I hope to change that and make that 180. All the same advice y’all have told me over and over again, I hope to apply it and take it into use, instead of just simply acknowledging it. My ignorance has led to failure with only myself to blame, but with your guidance and love, I’m slowly but surely picking myself back up. I can’t even imagine my life without you two. Thank you, Mom and Dad. I love y’all more than anything.

Your loving son,

Alan

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